OUR PRAYER

So as I mentioned before our region has been closed since September 1st and there has been no mention of when the committee will be open to reviewing new applications. This is the hardest part so far of this adoption process...not knowing an end date....not knowing how long we will be waiting. I have been needing to remind myself daily, even multiple times a day, that when the Lord called us to this journey, HE specifically made clear that he didn't want us to know ANY details...and sure enough here we are without any details. 



This week our social worker in country was going to the committee to try to convince them to at least accept and process the special needs adoptions seeing that these children need a good home and urgent medical care. She tried and they wouldn't answer...she believes based on her experience that they are ashamed of how many international adoptions they have granted this year and so they shut down to manage that total number. So, most likely they won't be accepting any new applications until after the first of the year. She is going to keep asking and urging, but really she can only do so much, her hands are tied. 


SO we wait...


It would be easy to be frustrated, we worked SO hard and quickly to get through the first part of this adoption process in AMAZING time! From the day we committed to her to when our paperwork was in country, with state approval and US approval under our belt, was only THREE MONTHS!!! It could have taken so much longer with this process being so unpredictable, but the Lord has made this process so EASY up until this point. All the documents I thought would be hard to get or hard to get approved...have been completed  with ease.  We have given Him PRAISE the whole way for walking before us! So, now knowing we may be waiting, at a standstill, unable to move forward for 3 more months, could cause one to be frustrated. But I won't allow that, its not about me, its about being obediently used for God's will and purpose...I want to glorify his name through the hard times as well as the easy...


I am choosing to PRAISE Him still. When we were called, he didn't say it would be easy, He didn't put an end date on it, he just said WALK, GO, DON'T ASK QUESTIONS, DON'T TRY TO FIGURE THE DETAILS OR THE WHYS OR WHY NOT'S, JUST GO!!!! So even at this time when we feel blindfolded, not knowing what terrain is under our feet or in our path ahead, we choose to walk upright and confident in our faith focusing on our LORDS comforting, guiding, loving voice. HE is good ALL the time....




Father,


We praise you for being the God you are, loving, compassionate, almighty. We praise you for being faithful to call us to be used to shine your glory literally around the world. We desire to make you proud of our thoughts, words, and actions. 


As our Father, you understand the love of your children, and how you desire to do everything and anything to keep us close to you...you understand our desire to be close to our daughter. You understand our hearts desire to scoop her up, love her, and tell her she is the most desired beautiful little girl ever created. It is difficult loving her this much, and feeling still so far away from that moment of holding her, feeling her warmth and weight in our arms. Father, she is your daughter first. 


We know you love her more than we could EVER imagine, and she is YOUR gift to our family. We pray for your angels to be sent to surround her and form a hedge of protection around her. We lift up her body and health, Lord. You created her innermost parts, according to you perfect plan, and we pray that her health is sustained by your power until we can get her the medical care she so needs. We pray specifically for her caregivers, that they not only take good care of her physical needs but that they be kind and may show love and take a special interest in our sweet girl. 


Father, we know that by accepting this journey to follow your lead and reveal your character, we have a HUGE spiritual target on our backs. The evildoer wants nothing more than to keep our girl locked away in a life that leads to death, he wants to rock our boat with others who speak against you and your plan for our family or life circumstances that will puzzle us, but LORD, you are our vessel and refuge, and YOU will not be shaken...we are strong, because you are strong through us.  Help us to keep our eyes focused on you, do not allow us to look down at the raging sea below our feet...you will do amazing works through us,  if we keep our eyes fixed on you and BELIEVE you are more than capable of overcoming the evildoer EVERY TIME!! 


You spoke this world into existence, with your very breathe you give us life...your plan is perfect, and in that we find complete rest.  Lord, allow us to rest in knowing that you are calling us to stay for the moment...when you move, we move, when you stay, we stay. Even if WE could arrange be there tomorrow, if that is not what you desire for our family or for our daughter, we don't want to desire it either. 


Father, thank you for your love and direction, as we ride side by side on this roller coaster of life, allow us to remember to scream with excited anticipation from the peaks, hold on to you for dear life in the dips, laugh through every loop-de-loop, and enjoy every twist in turn, for the ride is better knowing we are on it with you. 


WE LOVE YOU, AND ARE SO BLESSED TO BE CALLED YOUR CHILDREN, WE COULD NEVER WALK THIS PATH WITHOUT YOU BY OUR SIDE, WE TURN THIS JOURNEY OVER TO YOU...IT'S YOURS, DO YOUR THING, WE ARE JUST ALONG FOR THE RIDE.


AMEN