Don't be in such a hurry...when you get impatient you only start to worry....remember remember that God is patient too, think of the all the times that others had to wait for you! Does anyone else know this song as familiar?? It is one that Lance grew up on, and since we have met, has been the little jingle when patience is needed.
So, the name of the adoption game is WAITING...which is hard when you have a beautiful little child waiting for you that you can't wait to meet. I was expecting to be able to get the draft of our homestudy to be ready to be viewed by Lance and I last Friday (when we were told to expect it when we had our homestudy visit on the 18th), last Wed. our social worker said that it wouldn't be ready until Tuesday at the earliest. Our social worker is AMAZING and I know she is very thorough and does an amazing job, but everyday is just so darn precious to me and its hard to wait!! So yesterday I was at work alllllllll day....waiting for her email with the draft attached....no email, none, zilch. I was fighting the urge to call and email (maybe drive over to her house....serious on the verge of crazy lady) and say, "is it ready yet? is it ready yet?" I was a worry wart all day, wondering WHEN we would get it, HOW much longer it was going to take, WHY does everything have to take so much longer than I want...Throughout the day I kept reading my bible, and of course every verse was about having peace within, trusting the Lord...yadayadayada ( i had a bad attitude yesterday). I didn't want to have peace within...i just wanted to have the draft!! So...i had to work until 5, then headed straight to bible study with my bestest girlfriends!! Got home at 9am, and Lance had Rowdy all ready for me to put to bed...so I emerge from Rowdy's room at 9:30, open up my laptop, open my email.....and what to my wondering eyes does appear??
THE HOMESTUDY DRAFT that was emailed that morning! Our social worker was wonderful and did get it to us when she promised she would...I was just expecting her to send it to my work email, not my personal email. SO, guilty as charged, I crawled back to the Lord and said I'M SORRY for having a bad attitude, not trusting that HE guides my steps...he had it all worked out, exactly as I wished for, and here i was panicking over it, even after reading his words of encouragement to be patient over and over throughout the day. Ahhh...first of many lessons i will be learning on this journey!
So we reviewed it last night, and emailed it back to her with some minor corrections this morning. She said she would forward it to our placing agency in AZ, to be reviewed and then checked to make sure it will not lose its meaning when it gets translated. SO PLEASE PLEASE pray that there are not many changes if any that need to be made. Once our social worker gets the a-okay from our placing agency...she will be able to issue the official homestudy!!!!! Once we have one of these original/notarized homestudies we will include it with an application, and some supporting documents, to be sent on to the next step...USCIS (United States Citizens and Immigration Services.)
On a lighter note, I have not been able to resist buying some sweet little girly clothes!!! I have NO idea what size Rush is, so I am guestimating that she will fit into 3T and 4T at some point if not now....so I can still indulge a little.:) I am refraining from really filling her closet with things until we meet her and can get a better idea of her actual size. This is a new world for me, because I have a sister in law and a cousin with boys just older than Rowdy, and he was the next in line for ALLLLLL of the hand-me-downs. I haven't had to buy him anything between those and gifts for birthdays/holidays. I have also pulled out all my fun fabrics from the closet to sew my baby girl some dresses!! I have had so much fun sewing all Rowdy's girlfriends little girly treasures and now I get to make them for my own sweet girly...ahhhh, I am so blessed!!!!!
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It's funny how often we need to be reminded that God knows what He's doing and is working behind-the-scenes even if we don't see it or feel it. Remember this incident the next time you start to worry...His timing is ALWAYS perfect! I can't wait to start buying girly clothes as well!!
My husband grew up singing the patience song as well! :) I had never heard it -but he started singing one time when we were dating, and now it is often sung around our house whenever one of us is feeling impatient! :)
I guess I'd better introduce myself! My name is Jennifer Willis & my husband Brandon and I live in Eugene. I found your blog through Reece's Rainbow under the sponsor a family section. I was excited to check out your story, since you're also from Oregon! :)
We are just beginning this journey - and are gathering information right now to begin the process of adoption. We both feel without a doubt that this is the right choice for us - and that God is calling us to this - and we both have an overwhelming sense of peace about it! :) We too are planning to adopt a little one from Eastern Europe with Down Syndrome.
We are excited and overwhelmed and scared and every other emotion possible all at the same time right now! But, I just wanted to introduce myself - I'm excited for your family!! :)
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